AESLEHC

2010-01-13T23:49:00.002+08:00

i hope no one wants to go vj.
i hope everyone doesnt want to go vj.
c'mon, its so far, why would anyone want to go there?
i hope everyone but me wants to go vj.
okay no, i hope at least the number of dudes who go is not big enough to bombard the school.
i really dont enjoy pondering.

2009-11-06T22:02:00.001+08:00

Arr.
I will stop and i will not get obsessed over 曹格。
I will only admire him.
Ughhhh i hate getting obsessed over people.

2009-11-05T11:20:00.001+08:00

又要下雨了。。。正好和我的心情相配。

2009-11-03T18:57:00.000+08:00

我爱曹格。
我爱曹格。
我爱曹格。

2009-10-30T12:33:00.000+08:00

Why does the rain have to stop?

2009-10-28T20:35:00.001+08:00

My head hurts.

2009-10-27T20:32:00.001+08:00

(((((((((((((((((:

2009-10-27T19:34:00.000+08:00

)))))))))):
I got no mood to study.

2009-10-25T12:35:00.002+08:00

Ignatius Low looks a tad bit like my math teacher.
The silhouette of his face and the really lame smile.

2009-10-23T21:20:00.000+08:00

ughhhhhhhhh my ear is blocked for the one millionth tine.
im half deaf.
this is the most annoying thing ever. EVER!

2009-10-16T20:56:00.003+08:00

I don't understand why people would want to, for even the most plausible reason in the world, brand themselves.

They think it's having their own identity marked on themselves. Look at me, they say. This is me and you ain't gonna do nothing about it.

I think it is entirely absurd to scorch yourself with hot metal to get that three degree burn that will leave you with the patterned scar you want. A brand, they call it.

What they want is a permanent identity in this very...impermanent world. So they can wake up everyday, look into the mirror and stare at the marks carved on their skin remind themselves of their own philosophy that will never ever go away.

I don't know how they enjoy the pain. A test of endurance, they claim. Pain that is so excruciating can somehow evolve into something pleasurable.

Personally i find it offensive. It's like slicing off a piece of your flesh in front of me and then boasting about it. How revolting.

2009-10-16T20:54:00.001+08:00

Did you know...

That you can actually manipulate me?

I wish you couldn't.

2009-10-12T23:12:00.002+08:00

我快要发疯了。。。
都是你的错。

2009-10-09T22:30:00.002+08:00

Mission Accomplisheddddddddddddd.

Can't believe there's no more school.

I can't hate you everyday.

You're once in a lifetime.

2009-10-08T21:13:00.002+08:00

The funeral below my house is really noisy.

The noise is
1.unbearable.
2. completely oblivious to my current mood.
3. noisier than noise.
4. noise that's obsessed with itself.
5. aimless and senseless
6. empty and void
7. foreign to musical intelligence
8. ironic to the solemness of death itself
9. painfully distracting
10. ridiculous

Thus it has prevented my brain from functioning.
I think it ate my brain.
So i shan't do any work today.

2009-10-04T22:47:00.002+08:00

I dreamt

that there was this really tall man chasing me around in a book fair.
He bent down the whole time while chasing me so that i couldn't spot him.
yes it was as incredulous as it sounds.

He was thin like a pole. Had orange curly hair. He looked very much like a clown. I am coulrophobic after all.

then i went into a shop. I saw a wig.
I took the wig. And thought i was really smart to have taken the wig for disguise.
Suddenly i began to feel like i was in a movie.
And i was going to escape from this weird guy successfully.
But he saw me take the wig. So I figured my doom.
He was catching up and i felt like his long hands would grab me any moment.
So i tasted terror.

But then i woke up.

Thankfully i woke up.

2009-10-02T23:08:00.002+08:00

Stealing is a crime. In some cases a disorder, you may say. An irresistible compulsion to take something that doesn’t belong to you. A very wrong compulsion.

But what a paradox it is that this incorrigible crime comes with a degree of exhilaration too. Is it not supposed to be guilt instead? The initial guilt though-if there even is any-eventually dissolves into sinful satisfaction, no? Satisfaction then grows dry and wilts and suddenly you’re feeling all empty again. Vacant space inside you that requires a fill to the brim. Then as craving wraps its arms around your neck, you just have to do it again, don’t you? So then it becomes habitual, doesn’t it, doesn’t it?

Now I feel the pinch. At first it had been a bare grasp of its absence. Now it has evolved into full blown realization. And reluctant acceptance. Painful, you know. Like, ouch x100.

I’ve had it for a year and a few months. As ridiculous as it sounds, I have, unknowingly, developed an attachment towards this lifeless yet faithful thing. Rain or shine, it walks me-literally- to school every morning. Braved the mud, trampled on dirt and conquered colossal distances of ground. The most gratifying thing it did though, was to give me that little bit more of height. It was like…my second skin-only tougher.

I can see it in my mind. Its image is unbelievably vivid-with all the nearly exact stains and spots of dirt that I had once tried to scrub off- in my head. But it’s gone now. I can’t believe it’s gone. Nothing can ever fit me so impeccably again. I doubt it. Nothing.

Is stealing the representative of poverty or sheer greed? Vulnerable succumb to impulse or the throbbing excitement? Whichever one, it hardly provides the right to steal. Actually, it doesn’t. It doesn’t as long as it’s not a Robin Hood story.

So then, what was his reason, huh?
Why did he have to steal my shoe?

Horrible evil mean shoe stealer.
I'll catch you one day and demand all my shoes back.

2009-09-28T21:06:00.002+08:00

oh no i can't stop using my tablet. I need to lock away my tablet.
Its distracting me.
ahh.

okay i keep telling myself its the last time im gonna slack my day away but everyday becomes my last time

okay need to stop listening to music and watching videos.
prelims are over but o levels aren't, you know? you know?
i'm an idiot.

I was thinking, i think ris low is horrible.
she is so...
boomz.

2009-09-09T21:08:00.001+08:00

现在是2009年9月9日9点9分！！

I am so accurate(:
Well, duh.

2009-09-04T16:45:00.000+08:00

omg holidays are here!!!
although studying is compulsory, but it's still holidays!
yay yay yay.
ah shall slack the whole of today...
ate tiramisu just now.
i will eat tiramisu maybe once every year.
to preserve that kind of feeling.
you know, you can't eat delicacies too casually.

can i afford to slack tomorrow too?
am still considering.

rats i can't stop eating.
must be my hypothalamus, not functioning well.

2009-09-02T20:49:00.000+08:00

The problem with falling in love,

is that it's so difficult to fall out of love.

Why?

2009-08-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

I can't wait for olevels to end. I have multitudes of things i want to do.
I know it's still early to say this, but you know.

Shall i be conceived by my intellect or my emotions? Of course the former would be a wiser choice, yet i am sad to say that i often fall into the category of the latter. Then again you may argue and say that i have no intellect. Hahaha.

It saddens me so that the exam would be held in class tomorrow. Unfortunately for me, i am stuck at the back where it is exceptionally warm. I remember perspiring a lot whilst doing a science paper last year. It was a horrible experience. But the good thing is that the heat is not persistent. As your get absorbed in your work, it starts to feel cooler.

I wonder how i am going to be able to finish studying ss geog and bio. Maybe i should eat more almonds. My dad gave me some almonds to eat. He said it improves the memory. Ah, something i clearly need.

Hope i can finish my essay tmr. I don't remember finishing an essay in an exam before. Haha. Okay, God will help me.

2009-08-20T22:31:00.000+08:00

greatttttttttttttt.
i think im feeling one million different emotions now.
if there are even one million different emotions in the first place.
how can you feel happy and sad at the same time, annoyed yet not so annoyed, blessed yet unsatisfied, thankful yet regretful, disdainful yet inclined, purposeful yet aimless...?

All my emotions are towards different things, maybe that's why.

I dont know how i feel towards you. It's an emotion but i can't put my finger on it.
It is annoying me.

My stomach hurts again...
It's cold and im hungry.

i should concentrate on other things.

I know myuk will make my day tomorrow.
Hahaha.

2009-08-19T22:02:00.000+08:00

I can't believe it! but i believe it.
I forced myself not to cry before the results.
though i was seriously scared.
I really didn't expect it...
But ah, the power of God when you trust in him.
I know, more than anything else, that God helped me.
I prayed alot, frankly.
I couldn't have done it without him.(:
God is AMAZING.

2009-08-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

I should choose to believe in time.
Time...

Yet...humans are disgustingly vulnerable.
Such a trait is as unfortunate as it can be.

为什么。。。
我还放不下。

2009-08-09T22:28:00.002+08:00

Firstly, i shall wish singapore happy birthday.

Happy birthday SINGAPORE!~
okay that was lame.
but somehow this years ndp seemed more interesting.
Interesting enough to catch my attention for the whole parade.
And compromise my studying time as a result.

Singapore idol was funny.
Dick reminds me of mc.

Great, tomorrow's a holiday.
I better spend the time properly.
I haven't been following my schedule.
Why am i like that.

Shall try to wake up early tmr.
I have to study harder...otherwise im going to regret it.

~加油！
to myself and everyone else.

2009-07-27T20:41:00.002+08:00

First i need to cure my mind.
Next, i need to cure my heart.
Then, I should cure my soul.

After which, i will try to stop saying the word 'shit' and 'damn'.

And then, i shall try to follow my timetable and study accordingly.

Maybe i should review my motivations too. Sometimes i seem to be working for the wrong things.

Lastly, i should consider giving my grandmother a call within the week.

This is probably going to be the toughest week. But i'll get by.

All i need...
Is strength.
From God.

2009-07-23T22:29:00.002+08:00

我会。。。
更勤劳
做多一点功课
早一点睡

后悔很多东西。。。
但没用，时间不能回头。

火。。。灭了。
温水变冷了，冷水快要冻了。
却觉得拘束松了，少了。

你总是能那么容易地控制我的喜和悲。

不行，我得自己控制自己的情绪，不能任你来决定。

你。。。永远都不会懂。

2009-07-18T16:28:00.000+08:00

心因你而难受。

2009-07-08T21:22:00.002+08:00

1. today in the bus i was sitting beside a gross man who did actions that were too gross to write down
2. i ate two portions of lunch today all because of trw. she causes me to be fat. she is a bad influence.
3. valencia and i have different meanings of "many"
4. i feel like the laziest and slackest person in the world.
5. i regret not finishing the informal letter during english lesson because i have to do it later
6. i regret sleeping just now because i wont be able to sleep early anymore
7. i cannot watch the 9 oclock show anymore
8. i feel very hot now
9. i shall go take my temperature later
10. i feel bad that i am bad and you are nice
11. i want meiyi will pass her sore throat to me
12. i am wondering whether to give you the other half
13. my mom is still not back from work
14. i realised that i actually prefer that she doesnt come home so late
15. i need to pack my room and the pig sty looking house
16. the shoe stealer is back
17. he/she just stole my OLD pair of worthless shoes that i wear to run
18. now i have to wear my school shoes to run
19. friday will be a significant day
20. even though i can be quite emo myself, i really dont like for people to be sad
21. i feel sad for sl...
22. i will try to study abit everyday
23. since i really want to go to vjc
24. i will handcuff myself if i play typing maniac again

2009-07-02T20:41:00.002+08:00

oh and i forgot to mention that i want to sleep now.
But my sister is in the room changing and when she is, she take around half an hour.
Dont even know what she's doing inside other than changing.
I have to sleep now!!!
If not later when i start feeling less tired i wont be able to sleep.
Im feeling very tired now.
I can lie on the bed and fall asleep.
But i can't.
It's okay if you don't understand.

2009-07-02T20:34:00.000+08:00

Yay yay yay yay yay oral is overrrrrr!!!!!!
Even though i think i did okay, i can't say i think i did well.
There's geog tmr and i really hate studying human geog so i think im going to fail geog.

2009-07-01T21:11:00.001+08:00

Learning is so fun!
Education is so fun!
Studying is so fun!!

2009-06-30T10:05:00.004+08:00

I cant believe ytd was our last last last lastest performance.

Even though im not crazy about credance, not long ago i realized that there are still feelings attached. Haha sounds weird. I rmb i really hated dance in sec one and i think most people did too because the seniors were damn fierce and kept scolding us and everyth. But then there was syf in sec2...point of dance which i liked best. Although we had to wake up damn early just to reach school at 630 to practise, i dont think anyone was complaining...not even me! (: And i wasn't even staying in queenstown yet. In fact i miss that kind of practices.
During that period the feeling was just there and i really loved credance alot. I even looked forward to going for the practices hahaha.
Valencia's right. Ten years down the road you look back you wont regret joining ayg even if you might regret it now. But i dont think i need ten years to not regret, i already dont regret it now. Despite regretting it before since ayg practices were alot and we didnt really do anything, the kind of feeling of being able to perform one last time....is just really great, but kind of sad.

I really learnt alot of things from credance and i seriously dont think i'll ever find a cca like that again. Even, if it's a cca i really like. And, i think the thing that i'll remember most about crescent when i leave will definitely be dance.

But okay we've finally stepped down and been waiting for this for 4 years...I cant say i dont feel really happy!!!!!
But dammit this means we have to go back to studying...but i hope all the secfours will 加油 and do their best.
Even for studying, 死也要拼出来！！！！

Dammit there's oral on thursday.):

2009-06-22T20:42:00.002+08:00

我真得很不想读书。。。
算了，过几分钟我应该读一点。

如果能延长假期，我会高兴得要跳上山顶。
如果不能，我会伤心得像跳进海里淹死自己。
去北极冻死自己也不错。

我听太多歌了。。。所有的读书时间都因为听歌而越来越少，气死我！
说到听歌，我突然想起多美歌.

dhoby ghaut: 多美歌
outram park: 欧南园
chinatown: 牛车水
little india: 小印度
boonkeng: 文庆
hougang: 后港
sengkang: 晟港

okay my memory is really bad.
even though i like to remember things like that.

2009-06-21T16:08:00.000+08:00

哎哟你怎么每次都在我梦里出现呢？

2009-06-21T16:01:00.002+08:00

嗨。。。我每次都为无聊的东西疯狂。
重要的。。。丢在一边。
这不对嘛！

2009-06-13T10:50:00.002+08:00

okay i shall go to malaysia.
i feel so uncomfortable at home.
i can't study...and i havent really been.
i am very positive that i am going to die for the exam.

okay my tablet says it has critical battery now.
hence, bye.

2009-06-08T21:17:00.002+08:00

today, tanruiwen and i slept in my house for 2 hours.

2009-06-07T16:32:00.002+08:00

val and i made a pact.
unfortunately, i hope she doesn't fulfill it.
then i can play free $30 worth of games.

i only have 2 weeks to study everyth for midyrs.
ahhh i want to die.
and i havent even started on a single homework.
i shall try to study very hard during the 2 weeks.

i miss jacq vid clara agnes carmen peiling jane cq cass ruby):

okay god...im sorry.
i can't stop playing.
but i will stop when you tell me to.
im human...afterall, you see.

2009-06-03T20:48:00.002+08:00

nightline was fun.
haha.
although i don't think it was scary.
valencia was being damn lame...hahaha.

i went to play basketball today.
finally.
my legs hurt.
i think it was because of ddr.

i dreamt about mrloh 3 nights in a row.
out of them, in 2 dreams i made him sad and angry.
hahahaha.

2009-05-31T21:12:00.000+08:00

是明天了。。
我今晚一定很难入眠。。。
哈哈。

2009-05-28T19:56:00.002+08:00

I'm in queenstown and A1 feels like it's in tampines.
I think it's in tampines.
If i'm in jurong west, A1 will still feel like it's in tampines.
Everyone's chinese has improved damn much...scares me.

H1N1 finally came...should i be happy or sad. Haha.

I don't want to run mass run tmr!!!
The earth is dirty...sky needs to give it a shower.

2009-05-23T21:10:00.002+08:00

I think intensive is 4321 times better than normal lessons.
I rather go for intensive everyday.
Although it is draining...but during normal lessons? There's this very thick, sick atmosphere.
Maybe it's the classroom. Haha.

I am in deep deliberation as to whether i should go tomorrow.
...

2009-05-07T21:23:00.002+08:00

Bonding Singapore came out!!!!
Yay!!!

Why does valencia like bird cages? Why does she like ddr? Why does she want to cook spaghetti? Why does she keep saying im retarded? Why does she weigh herself?

2009-05-03T14:38:00.002+08:00

Why do some people wish they had gone through sex education when they were young?
I don't think the sex education provided makes much of a difference.
Okay maybe like a pea-sized imapct.
I mean, what adults do behind closed doors and etc...
We don't need sex ed to know that.

No one really wears masks on the streets despite current circumstances.
I mean, even if i spot others on the streets wearing it i'll be thinking okay fair enough that's considerate and thoughtful but i am never going to wear it. NEVA!!!

I'm kidding.
That depends.
If i am forced to i will.

Bascially it all boils down to how ridiculous you may think you look. And how little people there are wearing masks. So it feels weird if you're the outstanding one. Sore thumb, they call it.
But anyway, i believe that if majority wears masks, like say 8 out of 10, i dont think anyone will feel weird wearing it then.

Okay...I was bored.

2009-05-02T22:17:00.002+08:00

Recently, i keep thinking abt people dying and then i'll feel like crying.
Lol, how weird.

I realised that i rather do housework than study.

2009-04-30T22:15:00.002+08:00

I didn't finish my essay, i am so sad.
But i will finish it during olevels.
I mean like, you know, i have to.

Tomorrow is a holiday!!
Next monday is a holiday too!!
Yay.

I wonder why people like to call girls 'gals'.
I wouldn't like to be called a gal.
Like, hey gal whats up....or hi gal...or you gals are....
Personally, it sound kind of gay to me.

I don't understand why people would walk naked in public.
It is such an unintelligent act.
Such imbecilic people...
It's worse when they say they didn't know that they couldn't walk naked.

I hope the swine flu doesn't come to singapore.
On the other hand if it does maybe we would get to skip school.
Yay.

Swine flu. Pig flu? Swine? Swine. Pig? Pig flu. Swine flu? Pig flu.

2009-04-29T21:30:00.001+08:00

I think gasoline has killed all my brain cells and my senses.
No wonder i had a headache.

I never ever get to finish my essay ever.
Because i spend approx 15+ mins thinking of a stupid plot.
And most of the time i don't even end up with a good one.
Sucks.
I should drink chicken essence tomorrow.
Maybe i will be able to think better.

2009-04-28T22:12:00.001+08:00

Wouldn't it be nice if the world was cadbury
Going to school would be a tasty treat
Homework would all melt because it's chocolate
Cadbury dairy milk is so good to eat
When your mind blanks in examinations
It's okay it's chocolate eat the papers
Wouldn't it be nice

2009-04-27T18:32:00.001+08:00

Gut-wrenching affair.

2009-04-26T22:02:00.002+08:00

I shall for once in my life remember that there is english writing course tomorrow and it starts at SEVEN and show that i remembered.
I WILL NOT BE LATE.

2009-04-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

I want to drink someone's blood.
Just kidding.
I'm just thirsty.

2009-04-23T20:06:00.003+08:00

I threw balloons out of the window just now...lolz.
Maybe i will see it tmr on the way to school.

I felt quite relived when someone said it's "not too late to start now".
Cheap assurance...but he's a teacher so if he say not too late that means not too late right.
Yes, right, of course.
Okay...good, i will start studying...soon.

I will not screw up my chinese olevel oral.
I will not...will not.

2009-04-22T21:05:00.000+08:00

Global warming will kill all of us.
We might all catch fire one day.

2009-04-17T17:42:00.002+08:00

A woman needs a man like a fish needs a bicycle.

2009-04-14T19:35:00.001+08:00

it's still funny.
laugh my ass off.

2009-04-11T08:44:00.002+08:00

HA today is my first official day of freedom.
The house feels empty.
But it feels free at the same time.

Today is also my sister's birthday.
Today she hasn't been annoying...yet.
That's cause she went to school early in the morning.
But i shall be nice to her today since it's her birthday.
While she's in school i shall make something for her.

I shall spend today more...um...usefully.

I want to go to the indoor stadium tonight. (!)

2009-04-08T21:14:00.003+08:00

I shall blog again since i feel like doing so.

I wish i could set fire to the school and get expelled.
Crystal did that, she got expelled.
But she's fiction.

I haven't done anything work-related since i got home.
That's around 6 hours.
Dammit i'm mad at myself!!

You are something i find unusually hard to grasp.

2009-04-08T18:24:00.003+08:00

I'm aching everywhere and I feel like my body is going to disintegrate.

I wonder how people can obviously be doing the wrong thing but have no clue.
In fact, they are unable to understand why certain people would live their lives incorrectly.
How deadly ironic.

I'm really really hungry but i don't know where's the dinner.

2009-04-07T20:44:00.002+08:00

I did a good deed today!!
I helped a woman carry all her stuff to the bus stop.
She asked me for help cause she said her leg really hurt cause there was a boy yesterday who did a football stunt and kicked her ~_~
Bad boy naughty boy mean boy!!
But anyway i wonder what she put in the bags. My arms felt like they were going to drop off.

It would be good if my piano teacher could scold me.

This sucks. I don't want to care anymore but i can't.
I am a very restless soul and i would like anyone to tie me down so i can discipline myself to stop thinking and start being an olevel student.

My brain says Get to work and my body says Shut up I'm reading my book.

卡沙巴王子说过：朋友之间的担心，是带着笑容的。情人之间的担心，是皱着眉头的。

2009-04-06T21:48:00.003+08:00

Omg my parents are going to overseas and we're gna be parent-free for 6 days!!!
I am srsly damn happy.
The bestest thing is my grandmother's going to stay with us.
Having my gran is the same as no parents cause she allows everything.
Uh okay not really but you just have to beg and she'll allow.
This is one of the few best things that has ever happened to me in my life.
I love the world and the world loves me.
YES!!

2009-04-06T20:39:00.002+08:00

hee hee ha ha ho ho ho ho.

1. I want to read.
2. I don't know what to buy for my sister.
3. I miss syf.
4. I hate hiccups.

2009-04-02T20:08:00.002+08:00

I'm broke.
I took taxi like everyday this week my money's really like all gone.
I will wake up early tmr and i promise i will ride the humble bus to school.

I hate my sister.
I feel this emotion probably a hundred times a day.
She wrecks havoc everywhere she goes.
I want to kill her.
Oh but she's mai sister i can't.
How so very sad.

I think education's great.
It's interesting and everyth but the whole education system is pointless, robotic and it sucks.
Sorry, just what i feel.

I don't want a maid but sometimes i can't deny i wish i had one.

I broke my record. ^_^
I ironed 6 pieces of clothing in 22 mins.
Oh mai gawsh i am good!
I am THE pro.

2009-04-01T21:03:00.002+08:00

Me and yp pranked jiaen today, hahaha damn funny.
I pranked my dad once and my sis twice.
My sis tried to prank me 4 times and only succeeded once.
Ha ha ha.
Can't help it that i could see through her lousy pranks.

Except for one.
She went to switch the shampoo and soap and 10 seconds into soaping my hair i realised i was actually soaping my hair. :/
Hahaha really, not that im dumb or what but i was very sleepy while i was bathing so can't blame me. At least i didn't continue to shampoo my body.
That pest is gna get it from me tomorrow!!!

2009-03-31T21:21:00.002+08:00

Dammit im either playing the piano or the guitar or reading or tv or nothing
I'm not studying or doing any work at all, someone wake me up!!!!
I still can't really find my motivation, which i need very badly.
Tmr's april fool's day hahaha.
And my sis's birthday is approx 11 days away what should i do.
Oh i shall play a prank on my family tmr(:

2009-03-30T21:18:00.002+08:00

Eudea is in Indea.
Eudia is in Indea.
Eudia is in India.
Eudea is in Indea.
Eudea is in India.

I just realised how it rhymes.

2009-03-28T22:11:00.002+08:00

Yessssssss! I got an acoustic.
I'm not obsessed or insanely in love with it.
Dammit there had to be a budget and although it was unspoken i could hear it in my dad's head-less than $150.
It's an acoustic anyway, that's the whole point.
I will one day be head over heels in love with it.

But anyway, its white-which looks really nice.
White sounds weird huh.
I like it.

2009-03-27T21:03:00.002+08:00

I think there's a shoe stealer in my neighbourhood.
Stolen our shoes twice, and only steals the new, branded ones.
I am going to set a trap and catch the person one day.

Tomorrow is earth hour.
i care for the environment k.
Don't worry earth, i will do my best to save ya.
~

I'll go crazy if i can't get next to you.

2009-03-26T21:53:00.002+08:00

I can't remember what i wanted to blog about.
I want to sit at the back.
Okay although i wont be able to pay attn at all.
Like at all.
~
当初的决定都让我们很疲倦。

2009-03-25T19:46:00.001+08:00

Oh and, yes i changed skin.
sorry damn random.
lol.

2009-03-25T19:20:00.002+08:00

CTs are over, but personally i don't feel much of like, wow a breather or anything.
I didn't even really put much effort, so to me, not much difference with normal days.
But well, the only thing is that my mother can see that i'm on the net now and not nag at me.

I'm feeling...sad now.
Basically i have nothing else to say.

2009-03-19T23:02:00.002+08:00

I lurb ricky chan so much because he is so hawt and sexy and damn charming.

2009-03-19T22:58:00.002+08:00

I don't think i will regret it.
I won't.
If i don't, i'll probably regret it even more.

Even though having to make decisions suck, you have to make one anyway.
Let's just hope i find my motivation through this.
I think i will.
(:

2009-03-16T20:03:00.001+08:00

Dammit tomorrow is my only free whole day.
:(

2009-03-12T21:06:00.004+08:00

It is friday the 13th tomorrow...
Spooky.

BEWARE IF:
Your neck and shoulders ache. (someone is probably sitting on you)
We should bring salon plas tomorrow.

Just kidding,
friday...13th...big deal.
Nah I'm not superstitious.
No, really.

2009-03-11T21:07:00.001+08:00

I'm trying to write a testimonial.
But it's difficult because i have two not working keys on my keyboard.
And everytime i want to type 'u' and 'p' i have to use the digital keyboard...
so ma fan.
>:(

Went to run with my sis today.
I didnt run as much as i wanted to cause my rib kinda hurt halfway.
Lol...she knocked into her knees while doing situps haha.

......就会放手。

2009-03-11T19:59:00.008+08:00

+(x 16) +

= HAPPY16th BDAY woman......!
See i remember that you don't eat cakes. :)
s'okay to be old y'know....dont worry...nah i know all about it.
awh val come lemme comfort you...

开玩笑而已, lurrbb euux lorrtts <3
华语酷！
要多多讲哦。。。
*冷颤*

2009-03-10T22:31:00.003+08:00

完美，并不美。

人生没有目标，每天吊儿郎当过生活。
毫无意义又无方向。
每天在盲目的走着，以为自己在向前走，但事实是其实一直停留在原地转圈。
还在浪费每一分一秒。。。
我到底在干嘛。。。

我觉得罗志祥唱的慢歌很动人。。。
听得出他的声音有些伤心。
我喜欢听。
李玖哲也是。

有很多别的东西想写，但我决定不要写。
太多了。。。而我想睡。

睡了，就别吵醒我。

别。憋。

2009-03-08T21:28:00.003+08:00

Sianzx i don't wanna resume lessons tmr.
I can't wait for the march holidays, despite that it's ct the week after.

I think i read very slowly.
I have read the same book for around...1 week and i haven't finished it.
I think it's because i keep stopping halfway.

I went for career exhibition today.
Other than this canada pre-u programme, it was really, quite irrelevant for me, or so i find it.
And then i saw a sofa but they said no sitting so i couldn't sit on it although i really wanted to, and i was damn tired.
I wonder how i'm going to sleep later since i slept 2 hours just now.
I should just lie on the bed and think about stuff.
And hopefully clear my brain.

I hope there wasn't any homework this week cause i didn't do any.

2009-03-06T20:55:00.002+08:00

Lizards deserve to die!!!
I want to exterminate the lizard population in the world.

Well the course, really, wasn't that bad.
It was boring at first, but it got better.
So overall, it was not bad.
At least i have some motivation now, i think.
I like the games(: (whether win or lose, you know, amanda :O)

I am the leader in following directions!
Ha ha ha. :D

2009-03-04T22:30:00.002+08:00

Darn i do not want to go to school tomorrow.
The workshop....
Makes me want to go home.

I am having slight flu now.
Hopefully it becomes worse tomorrow.

Cell was way better.
Wow sus doesn't quarrel with her sister.
But then again, we can tell.
Just, unbelievable.

My hair is still wet.
I shall wait for it to dry..
and sleep.

2009-03-03T23:05:00.002+08:00

Hahah i suddenly felt like uploading this lol.
I think it's funny.
And cool.
And damn random.
But anyway...it's funny haha.
If you don't think it is then our sense of humour very much differs. ): awhh.

2009-03-03T22:17:00.002+08:00

距离是否拥有麻痹的疗效？

My bod hurts.
Esp my back. I think it's aching.
okay it is.

I hope tmr is slack.
Sorry i am damn tired nowadays.
I need at least 10 hours of sleep before i stop getting tired.
currently i only have 7.
who wants to give me 3, im willing to pay!
($$$$$$)
-.-

2009-03-02T19:01:00.004+08:00

如果她是一座酷冷冰山，他愿意以他满腔火红的热情，融化她，感动她。
如果她是只不受枸束的风筝，他愿意是那片任她自由飞翔的天空，包容她，接纳她。

明天将会是个很长的一天。

我不要读书，
我要睡觉
弹钢琴
听歌
玩吉他
画画
打篮球
跑步
溜滑板
游泳
读故事书
玩游戏机
看电视
逛街
做饼干
跟踪他人
去游戏场
吃美食佳肴哈哈哈。。。邱珊利好lame叻。

哎呀拜托，谁不想嘛。

2009-03-01T13:26:00.001+08:00

I hate my sister so much i freaking wish she were dead and i do not love her at all.
Associating her with 'annoying' is such a major insult to the word.

2009-02-26T21:39:00.001+08:00

All i have to say is...
the world is going to end soon, yes.
And i hate my sister.
Like how eudea hates her brother.

2009-02-25T19:51:00.003+08:00

容忍的人其实并不笨，只是宁可对自己残忍。

E geog remedial was....well not too bad.
Haha, quite funny, i think we got corrected like the most number of times lol.
Haha eh i told eudea cross country starts at 9 and till now she believes me i think and she will probably turn up at 9 blonde head.
Ah well im not so mean, i shall tell her the truth tomorrow.

Today's talk in emath was rather...evocative.
I shall not despise, must not despise and will not despise.

2009-02-24T20:45:00.003+08:00

A few days ago i was annoyed at how the weather was so warm yet now, it's become so cold it freezes my blood.
Ha, the weather listens to me, lol.
I hope with all my heart it rains on friday.
At least 3 hours of shower should be good enough.
Then maybe for x-country we can have a novel experience.
Crescent girls' school shall stand in the rain whether in ponchos or under umbrellas or...with no protection at all and all attempts at instructions shall be drowned by the rain. Thunder is not bad an idea either. Just...leave lightning out of the picture. Life is precious still.

10 reasons to feel annoyed/frustrated/sad this week:
1.The weather is exhibiting signs of severe instability as can be seen from the drastic fluctuations of temperature.
2. There must be something wrong with the world's climate.
3. It most probably will not rain on friday.
4. We are not allowed to fail our amath test.
5. I am going to use 5 hours of dear life on saturday to hold a can.
6. And probably another 1 hour to travel to bishan and back.
7. There is a 9/10 probability that i will get a headache tomorrow.
8. The 1/10 probability is not inclined to exist.
9. I have geog remedial tomorrow.
10. I will not be going to my gran's house.

10 reasons to feel happy this week:
1. I am finally going to eat prawn noodle for the first time in the year tomorrow ever since my favourite stall in school failed me.
2. There is guitar lesson on saturday...and i enjoy it now.
3. There are no science lessons tomorrow.
4. The weather is not warm anymore...put aside the fact that it's abit too cold.
5. I am going to meet my uncle...i have lots of things to say to him. ( haha be honoured)
6. My uncle has grown fatter (: (: (:
7. There is no mass run on friday.
8. There are no lessons on friday.
9. We are released earlier than during school on friday.
10. I am still alive :D

2009-02-21T16:01:00.003+08:00

Ah i just finished packing the study room.
I feel so accomplished *smirks*
On a sadder note though, i spent the whole morn+aftn packing it, haven't done a single homework yet, annoying.
Because there were like 4584578 worksheets everywhere and i had to file them and filing takes up alot of time.
But anyway hahaha i found alot of stuff that i was sad i lost, yesss!!

great i am now 1/4 on my way to being a person who finishes her homework so she doesn't have to do them in class so she can pay attention and understand everything and can find all her worksheets.

Darn the bedroom is still very(very) messy.
But at least the mess consists of practical stuff like clothes and everyth, not worksheets at least, which makes it easier, i think.

My head hurts ouch.

K great now i have to start doing the homework.
I think i won't be able to finish it haha oh well.

2009-02-21T15:48:00.002+08:00

I think I'm blessed with alot that i never learned to cherish.
And i end up losing them.

2009-02-20T23:11:00.004+08:00

Illegal reprints of shirts...haha.

I really hate the weather these days.
Omg so hot pls.
During global warming it's supposed to rain more instead okayyy.

I want to quit school omgg.
Okay maybe i dont really.
But still, i hate doing so much work.
Why must we learn about such unnecessary stuff like the very unimportant parts of flowers and sincostan etc. Don't even see how that's going to help me in any aspect next time.
We should learn about more practical stuff like...

why are clouds white
why is the sky blue
why do we hiccup
why do we dream
why do people go out of tune when they sing
why do our stomachs growl
why do we yawn
why cant we sleep for 24 hours

sorry im damn tired now, not thinking rationally.
______________________________________

你是好人也是個壞人
對我坦誠只為了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
這點痛我還能忍

我是好人也是個壞人
分得夠狠你才有藉口轉身
寧願愛一點不剩
也不忍看戀人愛成路人

valencia you and i have the same taste in songs haha.
lol omg why are there weird people commenting on my blog.
HMPF my annoying uncle.

2009-02-14T17:07:00.003+08:00

Vulnerability is most charming and compelling at its own.

Crezawards was...fine.
I think the one of the comperes was so funny to the max.
And omg _________.
I can't believe i did it.
And _____ looked so ____. (!!!!!!!!!)
Kkkkk relaxxxx.
Fill in the blanks.

It makes sense if i suck at piano and excel in studies, or if i excel in piano and suck in studies because that means that well at least i am spending time that can be shared unevenly among those two things.
But it doesnt make sense that if i suck in both piano and studies, because that implies that i am spending neither of my time on this nor that.
Sadly i am stuck in the case of the latter which disadvantage is quite apparent.

I want to go to my cous's house at 4 pm!!! :(
From the sad expression i'm sure we all know i can't.
"Darn it" hahaha.

钢琴上黑键之间，永远都夹着空白。
少了一块，就不精彩。

2009-02-09T23:29:00.002+08:00

I have wandered far and long enough from God.
Life without him is so very meaningless, i start to realize.

2009-02-07T16:47:00.003+08:00

I don't feel like going for guitar later even though i know it will be fun; somehow there's this dread that just sits inside me because i can imagine the many other things i can do while i'm spending 2 hours there. But yet if given a choice i would rather go because i know if i don't i will regret it. Minds work in weird ways, or maybe only mine.

I don't like geography, i really don't.
I think i would rather be doing a pile of math or chinese than working on a page of geography and everything about development. No offense to those who worship geography but i really dislike it and after looking at a page of uninteresting geography questions and then getting turned off i just feel like venting my detest here.

I find that i feel very uncomfortable in my study room because everything's so messy and its so small and warm etc. It is really a pain to be inside and doing all my homework among stacks and piles and being stuck in the same orientation everyday but i can't migrate to anywhere else because everywhere else is occupied.

I doubt this will be the week that i finish up my homework but at least it is the week that i did the most homework, i think. I think i need a few more days or a week to lick everything up and then maybe i can start my delayed quest to being a perfectionist.

Okay I shall stop complaining and pmsing and start appreciating.
Hahaha.

Smell is an awesome power.

2009-02-06T23:54:00.002+08:00

回到过去。

Ah I'm in love with jay chou again.
I can't believe there used to be a period of time where i disliked him.
He is so cute and hot and funny and very cool.

My teeth hurts like crap.
I think I can't eat anth tomorrow alrd.
The dentist made it super tight like ouch k.

I just drank milk.
Then after that i drank green tea.
Now my stomach hurts.

Okay i better start doing all my homework tmr.
i must wake up early tomorrow.
But i bet i won't.

Awh mr. security. (L)(L)(L)

2009-02-05T21:50:00.002+08:00

Ahh my maid is gone.
It's kind of sad actually, but good at the same time.

I wonder who is going to iron my uniform.
Not my dad.
Not my mom.
Not my sister.
Not me.

Wow i did my bio tys, except section B.
I think its the first few rare times in the year that i really did a homework without copying.
I should reward myself.
I should keep it up.

Eudea is lucky.
I want to go india too.
Grrr I want to escape.

My gum hurts.
I can't say the word 'laura' properly without it hurting.
okay now i can.

stupid laura.

2009-02-03T22:31:00.001+08:00

I am growing fatter by the minute everyday.

2009-01-31T14:38:00.002+08:00

i look like i believe but i don't.
and i know.

with one you lose another.
can't have your cake and eat it, no?

sharks i don't want to go visiting later.
i can't believe i still have to visit.

and i woke up at 11 today.
and for the past 4 hours i have only done one journal writing.

k great i keep telling myself next week i must start doing my organized routine,
but sharks the next week never comes.

and omg i don't want to act the glass menagerie thing.
like srsly?
why must we act...

thank you so much, technology.

2009-01-25T13:52:00.002+08:00

ah, longing is an emotion.
i shall describe it in my journal writing.

there is so much homework!!
i wonder when i will have time to do it.

i have no appropriate clothes to wear omgggg.
like, srsly, i only have jeans, and like what, shirt?

frankly, now i will miss performing damn much.

ah yeah some relatives ah, more kiam siap one hahahaha.
he is so funny!!
wl who will do standard deviation for cny pls.
CNY$$$$$$$$$$$$$